Hello Old Friend...

Ah, yes.. Not only do I have to be away from my baby, but I have to attach myself to this thing twice a day at work. Don't get me wrong, I want to do this to give Adriana the best. It is just a big pain! Being a teacher, I can't just take a break when I need to and so my pumping schedule is a bit crazy. I will have to pump during my lunch and prep and perhaps after school. My hope is to keep it up until Adriana is at least a year.... However, I am not optimistic!

Denial.

In denial that I go back in one week.

In denial that I will have to leave my baby with someone else.

In denial that I won't see every smile and hear every coo.

In denial that she will grow even faster.

In denial that my heart will hurt more than hers.

In denial that we will be just fine.

Three months

Time is a flyin'. Baby Ana is three months old. Which means I only have one more month until I go back to work, ugh, I talk about that in a later post. Adriana is smiling so much more now and interacting more, which is a lot of fun. She has had a few small chuckles, but mostly she just opens her mouth really big when she thinks something is really funny. It is awesome.

So remember how I said last month that she had mellowed in the drama department? Yeah, well it came back with full force this month! It's like she needed to make sure her lungs are still functioning well. If she doesn't like something, holy cow, she will tell you. It is almost humorous. With Connor, I would have been a hot mess with the crying, but with the second one, I am a lot more relaxed. Plus, I know most of the time she is just being dramatic!

Still no schedule really. She goes to bed about 9pm every night and wakes up at 9am, but during the day, it's anyone's guess. She is typically awake for about an hour or so and then will nap for anywhere between 45 minutes to 2 hours. At night she wakes up twice, 3:30am and 6am and up for the day at nine.

I am trying so hard to savor her. Giving her lots of kisses, snuggle her and enjoy this time when she needs me so much. We plan on her being our last baby and as she keeps growing, it is starting to hit me more that I won't be pregnant again or have a newborn... My sister really needs to start having kids soon!